I am so loved

Pastor told us a story at church yesterday.
A very simple but meaningful story.
I cant tell it as well as him, but here is roughly how it went.

There was a bus driver who was ferrying a bus of school-children back from school.
Suddenly the brakes failed as they were going down a slope.
The bus driver knew that at this rate that they were rolling down the slope,
they will prob all gonna die when it reaches the end.

As he knew the road well, having travelled the same route for so long,
he remembered that there is a large field somewhere along the side of the slope.
He thought of turning into this field which he was approaching
to break the momentum and speed of the bus.
The field can probably cushion the impact of the crash and bring the bus to a halt.
Without much time to think, he decided to do so as it was the only way to save the children.

As he approached the field and was about to turn in,
he saw a boy standing at the entrance of the field.
The bus driver only had a split second to decide:
to knock the boy over and save the bus-load of children,
or to avoid running the boy over by not turning into the field and risk the lives of the children on the bus.

In the end...he turned into the field.
The children were saved.

The parents rushed to the scene, searched and hugged their children,
all happy and relieved that they were safe.
The medics and reporters came.

Amidst the ongoings, the bus driver was stumped alone in a corner, isolated.
Someone asked "Why does he look so sad? He is a hero, he saved the children!"
A quiet answer came:

"The boy he ran over...was his son."

When I heard the last sentence, I felt a lump in my throat,
and my tears started to well up.

We were like the children on that bus.
God loves us so much that He gave us His only son.
He sacrificed His son for us so that we may live.
So that we are saved.

I felt very touched.
N undeserving.
I feel like I shud treasure my life more, as it was that important to Him.
He loved us that much.

With His love, I feel that my life is full of hope.
I know that He can make uncertainties certain.
He can take me out of my darkest moments, and help me face the future bravely.
Whatever darkness or uncertainties I sense before me,
I know my Lord will always be shining a light on me, providing me with a way out.
It is just whether I want to receive it or not.

I shall try my best not to worry about my future anymore.
N let Him provide for me.
For He loves me and has promised me.......

By His Grace, today I live.

Everything

Love this song from Wang Lee Hom.
Touching.

Saw this music video on youtube.
Very cool coz not only got hanyu pinyin,
also got english translation wor~!!!
Good for ppl like me who suck in Mandarin. =)

Wish that KTV has hanyu pinyin too.



Wang Lee Hom is so shuai!

To Hongkong...again.

Finally am able to just dump my work aside and go on another holiday w Baby!
We will be leaving for Hongkong tmr! =)

All thanks to Baby, we've got 2 free nights stay at Hkg Disneyland,
one night at Disneyland hotel and another a Disney Hollywood hotel.
Shiok!

Plus there are special rates extended to travel industry personnel now on SQ.
Only $320 per pax (taxes and surcharge inclusive) to go Hkg!

Such a good deal how can we miss out?

Cant wait to go Macau too..we will be staying one night there at Venetian!
Super excited.
Yippee!!!!

Wanna go traveling everyday.
Dun wanna work.

The unresolved case

Just when we thought the accident case was closed and resolved,
coz we have claimed the insurance and paid up alry,
2 letters came.

2 weeks ago, a lawyer letter came to inform us that
the car we hit will be claiming damages against us via insurance.
But it was ok coz this was left to the insurance companies to sort it out.

Today, we got a letter from traffic police,
asking us to go down to make another report.
Apparently now, it has been claimed that there has been an injury.
A medical certificate has been submited.

I think it is BULLSHIT.
No one was injured that day.
It was just a minor accident and everyone was fine.
All 3 drivers could still get out of their cars, walk, talk and take actions etc....

So I believe the dumbass person who submitted the MC must have not wanna go work the next day,
so made use of the accident as an opportune time to see a doc and get MC.
Bloody F**Ker!

Or he just wanted to claim more stuff and get more money out of the accident.

Now make everyone so troublesome.
Now we gotto go to traffic polic station to file report and kenna questioned.

*pissed off*

The Showdown tonight

It's the showdown between Man Utd and Liverpool tonight.
Im so excited and nervous that my heart is gg to jump out of my body anytime.

It is a super impt match for Liverpool.
A 'make it' or 'break it' match.
If they lose, say bye-bye to any chance of winning the EPL title.
If they win, hopes are on the table again...

I hope Liverpool wins.
Liverpool MUST win.

Baby and I are gg out to catch the match fever tonight.
I can forsee that we are going to fight.

N someone's gonna cry.
I hope the person crying is not me.
If I cry, I hope it is tears of happiness coz Liverpool won.

Cough cough cough

I have been coughing..and STILL is coughing...
for 3 weeks alry.

In this 3 weeks, I've taken mc twice,
and seen the doctor for the 4th freaking time today.
4 doctor visits in 3 weeks!
Gosh.

I think i may either die from coughing,
or die from taking too much medicine.

The doctor asked me to be careful of my diet,
rest more, and rest my throat more.
He told me to TALK LESS.

How to talk less?
I need to talk a lot at work!

I alry abstained from cold drinks, fried and oily food, and alcohol.
Still the same.

I think I shud really talk less from now onwards, and rest my throat more.

Item of the day

My item of the day today is this Chanel ring!
Found it on the Chanel website. So chio right?
Dunno if the diamonds are real though...
coz it is categorised under the "costume jewellery" section.

Nvm la, i still think it is very pretty.


I wanna buy the Chanel diamond stud earrings too.
Think it is at least $400.
Been eyeing it since a month back.
Boohoo.

Times r bad, better spend less.

Somewhere over the rainbow

Was on our way back in a cab to Baby's house after work from CBD area sometime last week,
when Baby pointed out the cab window and said to me "Baby, look."


We were travelling from Raffles place to ECP when we saw the beautiful sight.
(sorry used phone camera so pic quality not good.)

This is one of the rare few times I have seen a rainbow.
I dunno why, but i seldom get to see one.
Not lucky enuff i guess.

So when I saw this rainbow, I was so so excited like a little girl.
Whipped out my hp to take pics.
It is beautiful coz it is set against a scenery of the floating platform, Sg Flyer and the IR construction.
I thot it looks nice.
Nature in the midst of urbanisation.


The first thing i thot of was how beautiful God made this world to be.
Like a little girl, I asked Baby:
"Does it really have 7 colours?"
"Where does the rainbow end?"
"Is there really a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?"

Baby said that the rainbow ends in the sea, in the waters.
Er...I wonder if it is true? Or bullshit.
But it's ok, i choose to believe.
The sea is an amazing pot of gold anyway...coz there is life.

The rainbow looked different against different backdrops as we travelled up and along the ECP.
Altho the scenery changes, the rainbow is the same and always there.
Always beautiful no matter from which angle and against whatever backdrop.
Somehow, I felt amazed.
Cant describe this feeling.


No matter how dark and gloomy the day is,
no matter how much rain falls from the sky,
just like how sad you are, or how gloomy your life feels,
God allows tears in our eyes so that he can place a rainbow in our lives.

Wait for the rainbow. It's worth the rain.

Random thoughts

I suddenly lost my passion for work.
Dunno why...just dread gg to work.
Dread waking up so early every morning.
There's no motivation to keep me going.
Lost the momentum i guess.

Watched the 81st Academy Awards today as I stayed at home.
Not bad, was pretty nice.
Anne Hathaway is so chio!
I prefer Brad Pitt w/o the beard and moustache.

Cant wait to go on a holiday with Baby.
He is working late again, since the past week.
It is 11pm now and he is still in the office.
Poor Baby.

He said he wanna go Maldives with me and stay in Club Med.
He wants to soak up the sand sea and sand.
I like it too!
The Maldives' very pretty and romantic!
He wants to stay in those villas that is built on the waters.
I dun mind as long as it doesnt collapse in the waters...wahahaha.
Im scared of fish.

But now, Im more in the mood to go to some snowy cold winter wonderland.
Like Europe or Japan or Korea.

Whatever it is, I just wanna go travelling.
It is great that we both share the same passion for travelling.
We wanna travel round the world!
Too poor to do that now.
Plus work commitments...cant get away for too long =(

If we had $50K given to us to spend and
have to choose between getting married or to go travelling for a couple of months,
I think both Baby and I will choose travelling.

I think somehow travelling as a gf/bf couple and as a married couple is different.
Different feelings, and you wud get a different experience I guess.
Somehow, I feel that travelling as a gf/bf couple is more fun and adventurous.
Dunno why.
Hee.
Random thoughts.

We may be gg on a trip soon. Yay!
I hope it's on.

Whatever happens, happens.

Am on mc today again.
Sick with a bad persistent cough since last wed.
Had not recovered since.
Feeling really drowsy, no mood to work.

Been feeling rather down lately...due to sickness,
due to some stream of bad luck shit that Baby has been facing recently,
due to some ppl ard me who have kinda irritated me in some way.

Been especially disappointed with frens lately.
Some frens in particular.

I dun think im asking for much,
But they really disappointed me.

It seems like you dun really bother anymore.
It is like, why does it feel like im the only one making the effort most of the time?
So if I dun do anything, you aint gonna take the initiative too?
If you are not gg to make the effort, then neither am I.
If you dun need me, then neither do I.
AND dun always assume things about me without even asking me.

It makes me just wanna re-adjust my priorities
and change my focus to something or somebody else.
Things that I thot were impt, are suddenly not so impt anymore,
coz it dun seem impt to you anyway.
So why shud it be impt to me?

Conclusion is that I have decided not to go all out to make the effort anymore.
Whatever happens, happens.
Go with the flow.

I've learnt something meaningful at church yesterday.
As pastor said, God will present opportunities for successes in our lives
at the RIGHT TIME, at the RIGHT PLACE.

These are beyond our control.
No matter how strong, or how fast or how smart we are,
we cant control many things as all these are so-called "destiny" in our lives.
Destiny is what is in God's hands.

In a world of uncertainty, we have a God that is certain of our future.
God can put us at the right place at the right time.

So...i'll just leave it. Go with the flow.
God will present the opportunities, so whatever happens, happens.

Im just not gonna bother anymore.

P/S: Thanks BFF for being so sweet and calling me that day =)