My dream wedding dress

Pretty hor? This is wat i wanna wear for my wedding. Check out the lacey translucent midriff part of the dress! N all the fluff n lace n chiffon n ruffles all around! I wud be such a happie bride!

We r getting Married!

What do u do when u r so crazily head over heels in love with one another? When u look into each other's eyes n know that he or she is The One n that two of u are made for each other because the feeling n everything else is juz so right? What do u do when u juz cant live without the other half n juz cant envision ur future without he/she in ur life?

Thatz exactly how Nicholas n I feel about each other. Never have we felt so sure about anyone b4. We had a long talk about it, and we decided to...get married. The date is set on 14th May 2007, exactly 2 yrs after we first got together. We r gg to ROM, but the church wedding n the dinner banquet will be held either 1 or 2 yrs after coz we still need quite a few yrs from now to save up for our marriage. All r welcomed to witness our happy wedding at Fort Canning, ROM on the planned date! Dear frens, Wish us happiness and the best k!

Slut of the Century

"N the Best Slut award goes to...Jordan Lim May Hsia!" Oh boy oh boy, no one can ever win her, she beats all other sluts hands-down! WHY? Check out her blog entry "Confession time" dated Wed, 29th June: http://bbguin.blogspot.com/. Yepz peeps, she is involved in yet another man...another woman's man! This time, itz not someone w a gf liao..itz someone w a WIFE! n that guy got one kid with the wife somemore! N apparently that slut is so totally in love w him n realli believe that he will divorce his wife to be with her. First, relationship-breaker, now she wanna upgrade to become a Family-breaker! Who can be more gross and slutty n bu-yao-lian than her?! CONDEMNED for the rest of her life liao lah. Somemore she so ugly n fat n nothing good, dunno wat the hell those guys see in her. Prolly coz she easy to "pian" n make use of. So cheap n loose that itz so easy to get her into bed.

Enuff abt her..makes me sick! Anyway im finally gg for my driving test tmr, 1st July. Im so so gan jiong! Heard tt the passing rate is not very high and itz not easy for auto cars to pass...thatz why i damn stressed altho i think my driving pretty steady. But u noe those fierce testers can scare the hell out of u n make u so gan jiong tt u do everything wrong?! Yah n I will be the onli auto car on test tmr, with the rest being manual car testees. Peeps! Pray hard for me that i swee swee one time pass k! Den i promise i'll drive u guys wherever u want when we go out next time!

Anyway i had a lot of phone calls yesterday from companies asking me to go for interview. BUT! All financial planning companies like Manulife, AIA, n Power 9. All got my contact from asia1careers.com after seeing my resume. Anyway i rejected all of them like siao. N i oso rejected the one from Pathfinder Alliance liao coz that manager called me again yesterday for being shortlisted 2nd interview. No post of "Sales n Marketing Executive" doing financial planning for me!

A Wasted Tuesday

Itz been a week since i posted. Letz back-track a lil'.

Sunday 26th June was Baby NicNic's bday. The day b4 (sat) went out to have nice nice Jap dinner w his family. Had a super stressful time at first coz his daddy kept teasing n making fun of me! He had a straight-face so i cudnt tell whether he was joking or serious! I was practically breaking out in cold sweat n blushing so badly coz i was so paiseh! Once again my mad-laughter was made fun of. Next time i better control the way i laugh or his parents gonna say once again tt i laugh so loudly tt the neighbours are gg to complain...*embarrassed*

Den went to the Beach Hut at east coast n Baby's eldest bro made him drink so much till Baby's face super red like the red neon lights of the bar. After which me n Baby went China Black to find his frens...but the queue so long! So i brought him to Club Momo to find MY frens! Haha so so fun at Momo! Shud check it out for those who havent been there...not bad..RnB n some pop n house. Got "attacked" by an Ah Gua to dance w her on the platform! Yuckz! But well..pretty fun!

Next day we went to watch my fave long-awaited movie "Initial D."! Baby so sweet! He booked the tickets one day b4 w/o telling me. Gaf me a surprise. He also treated me dinner n everything else. Plus, i get to make the decision on where i wanna eat. Wah, feels more like my bday instead of his lor! Initial D. is super good coz the cars r all super chio! Plus my beloved Shawn Yue juz makes the movie so worth it! Itz totally the same as the anime, in terms of the plot n the characters n the settings.

Monday went back sch to collect transcript. Caught up w so many frens like Candy, Jasmine, the Jen twins, Joan, Swing Girls, Hui Ju, Michelle, Shane n so many more. Felt pretty good to see all the biz fac ppl again. Went to have Sakae Buffet lunch-cum-dinner w Swing Girls but w/o Jialing n Eliz. So sad they cudnt join us. KTV next time ah! Dun dua me again! Plus another crazy photo-taking session hor!

Went for some dumb interview at Pathfinder Alliance today.Wasted my time. Itz a financial service company looking for mgmt trainees. But to me, it sounds more like they wanna train ppl to be financial advisors lor! Im so not interested but i guess i hid it well n act all frenly n talkative n jovial. My usual self i guess..started chit chatting. Den the manager likes me so much, he kept me in for 2.5 hrs...n he realli sounded more like he was selling me the job than interviewing me! n he said he likes my style n the way i asked intelligent questions. Omigod...though i quite happie abt the "intelligent" part..but i was seriously thinking he is damn good at "marketing" the mgmt trainee job to me. Painted such a rosy picture abt the job. He said he will call me for 2nd interview coz i was shortlisted. BUT! Im not interested! I guess i will reject when he gets his secretary to call me. Haha! Wasted my whole day though!

Hope i can find a job soon. Im sick of slacking n living off my Baby liao! n I hate bumming ard n being useless! Hmpf!

Baby driving...soon my turn to drive!

Baby's actual birthday the next day 26th June, at my house getting ready to go out!

Cheers to Baby!

Nic's 22nd bday cake. Got a super red face from all the drinking w his family n me!

Baby's bday Lamborghini drink

Little Miss Sick

Been sick since last friday. Feeling suckz. Today became much worse coz i sorta lost my voice. Baby is also sick! Prolly coz i spread my germs to him. He lost his voice too but he's much worse off than me coz he had to kip tokking when he's working. Great...now not onli i dun get to see him today, i oso wun be able to talk to him on the phone since both of us are voiceles

I've got this Malay lady as my driving instructor today, who feels that the way i drive seemed overconfident. Seriously i think itz bullshit. Am i supposed to look scared n gan jiong all the time den? N she had so much mascara on her lashes, dunno for wat fuck. I realli wonder who the hell is gg to look at her. *pissed*

Went for interview yesterday afternoon at L-Pine Promotions. A rather small company which is expanding, but the job scope looks pretty interesting as it deals w events n launches.Wonder if i'll get the job as a sales n marketing executive. n I wonder if i do get it...will i wanna work there? Therez bound to be a lot of work involved with a lot of weekends n late nights sacrificed. If there isnt a good pay to match it, I'll prolly juz screw the company.

Baby finally came to my house and met my parents on sunday (Father's Day). It was so nice to all sit together n chit chat over dinner. Glad that my parents r ok w him n that he overcame this stressful stage of "meeting the parents". haha. I felt equally stressed when i first met Baby's parents! Until now i still feel that they havent warmed up to me yet. I can forsee it will take quite some time. Nvm i will jiayou! Afterall im so lovable! haha being bhb again *wink wink*

Missing LiYing. Been a long time since I last seen her. We used to meet up pretty often. Now she doesnt even sms or call me. Guess she is busy w her temp job. Dun even noe where she's working. Sigh ='( LiYing if u r reading this...do noe tt i miss u lotz lotz n im waiting for u to ask me out when u r free. n Sophia too. She juz flew to China after coming back from Japan. Seems so hard to catch her too. Waiting for the day all of us can meet up (w Daphne n Yanz too), den we can go Eski Bar to hang out! Hee =)

Street Walkers

We were walking as we took this photo...how bo liao can we get?

Mesmerized

Artistic huh? I think it looks so cool! im a good photographer! =p

Act Cute!

Aint we Cute??! This was taken by this ang moh guy on the streets who commented that we are a lovely couple! haha so happie!

Piggy Babies

Clubbing Princess strikes back!

Went clubbing with the Swing Girls on Wedz at MS. Once again we club-hopped from dbl o to o bar and to mdm wong. It was soooo fun..as usual! haha now Jolin n Jialing scared liao...dun dare to drink so much and get real drunk like the previous time. so no formz lor. Nic nic came to find us at Mdm Wong to fetch us home. He's really a super sweet baby to me. He loves me so much that i feel so lucky to have him as my bf!

Super unlucky that nite coz as we were all leaving, my ger frens saw Issac n his slutty gf Cynthia! Apparently Nic was piggybacking me n they were walking behind us n in front of my frens. I was so obsessed w playing w Nic Nic tt i din noe they were behind us! My frens said that slut Cynthia was calling my name. Call me for wat! Fucking bitch! Watz she trying to prove man? With my new bf Nic Nic...she can have that loserly big time jerk all to herslef lah. Wait till he breaks her heart like wat he did to all other of his gfs...serves her right! So unlucky I also saw his godbro Amas at mdm wong n Yu Jin at river valley roti prata there. Luckily i finished clubbing...if not spoil my bloody mood.N CURSE Yu Jin for owing my dear Candy $200 n never pay back! *pissed*

Me went Baby's house to stay. So nice...like my 2nd home. Altho im not close to his family at all, i realli realli hope for the day to come when his parents can treat me like how they treat his sis-in-laws. So close lor. One big happy family. *envious* Im so stressed man. Altho Baby says im over-sensitive, I suspect his mum doesnt realli like me. Shit.

Oh yah! Anyway on Tues (14/06) was me n Baby's 1st mth anni! hee. But I've been meeting him so often, it feels like more than a month. Shucks. It was oso the day i went to cut my fringe n darkened the lower half of my hair to get rid of the blondness n highlighted a darker copper brown colour. Hee..no more Ah Lian k! Swing Girlsl stop saying that im an Ah Lian! hmpf! haha =p

Look at Mr. n Mrs. Nic here! This is taken at Baby's house b4 we went out to eat Katong Laksa. Yum yum! Check out my new fringe..haha..as usual i got a fat face! * hmpf =( *

Horoscope

1. Sagittarius (Nov 22 - Dec 21)
Do's
Sagittarius is basically a happy-go-lucky kind. You can enjoy with them their zest and enthusiasm for life. They bubble with excitement. And if you share the same interests and hobbies, life can be great fun together. They are frank and straightforward so if you want some truthful opinion about anything or anyone go to them. Be optimistic as they are and view life as glass half full.

Don'ts
Sagittarius is fiercely independent and cannot tolerate restriction. Hence, do not try to hold them back in life. Let them enjoy their freedom because if you hold any special place in their heart they will always come back for you. Do not feel irritated by the exaggeration in their speech. They may go on and on, talking about certain things that may not even interest you, but its their way of trying to communicate with you. They are basically frank and outspoken (to the point of being rude), so do not feel offended by their talks.

2. Sagittarius Love Profile

Your positive traits:
Your playful nature brings out the happy inner-child in datesYou're willing to take risks in love... and reap the rewards. You've got a killer sense of humor that gets talking with any hottie you meet.

Your negative traits:
Sometimes your sarcasm comes off as biting and abrasive. You can be brutally honest, tactless, and truthful even when it hurts. You're such a free spirit that you find it hard to commit to one person.

Your ideal partner:
Someone high energy who will pick up and out with you whenever. Is creative and fun - thinking of new adventures for the two of you. Is bold... and not afraid to tell you "I love you" early on.

Your dating style:
Unpredictable. You never know how the night is going to end up.

Your seduction style:
Daring. You're always pushing to try something new in the bedroom. Full of imagination. You've always got a new fantasy you're dying to try.Spritually driven. Sex for you can be an other-worldy act.

Tips for the future:
Realize that while freedom is great - sometimes a stable relationship is better. It's not all about you. Focus on your parnter's needs every once and a while. Make up your mind about your partner, and stick to it. Your fickle will ruin things otherwise.

3. A Sagittarius Woman

A tall slim and graceful woman who walked proudly like she is walking in a beauty pageant competition. If she slips or nearly falls, she will nicely cover it up and continue with her graceful and impressive walking step. She knows how to use make up to enhance her beauty. She looks at the world positively, so her face always seem so happy. She will not get upset easily.

Self confident woman who belief in her own style. She will not follow fashion, but standing in between simplicity and too modern. She is a very open person, sometimes can be too blunt. She is an honest person and never try to cause trouble for anyone.

She likes to say something that you do not want to hear and yet she can say something so pleasing at the same time. Example she may say "I wish you could make more money, so you could afford better cloth, but anyway it is better this way. If you make more money you could be thinking of money too much and become greedy". She can say such thing and make you wonder if you should get upset or love her more.

She is also a free spirit and does not like to stay home. She likes to be protected, but not to give her orders. She has no respect to a weak man. If she try to overpower you, then you have to calm her down and try to control her to be in a limit by doing the same thing too. She will listen if she respects you. She likes to be herself and likes her guy to be himself.

She is a no nonsense woman, so you will not hear her saying " Guess what I will do next", or "Guess what I am thinking" because she always say what she is thinking out loud like a guy. If you do not understand her in this matter, you could easily break up with her. She sees problems in her love life as another funny story.

She is clumsy and it is in her nature. You may think it is cute, but for some neat guys this could be so unbearable. She is very friendly, so she can easily turn her enemy to be her friends. She has good taste in fine cloths, good food, first class and first services. Even a poor woman in this Zodiac will struggle to afford such good taste. She could spent lots of money as if she can not understand how difficult it is to make money. If you think of let her borrow money, think again.

She is a paranoid. If she thinks you like her, she may already think about getting married and lost her freedom and so on. A jolly woman who loves sports. She is an ordinary woman who could dress like a tomboy. She has more guy friends and sometimes could act like one of a guy. She does not care about rumours, so she can get home very late and couldn't careless what her neighbor will gossip about her.

Her wit and innocent look are her charms. She is often hurt from love, but never afraid to look for a new one as if she is singing "Do that to me one more time". She likes going straight and being straight forward. She will not go around to get what she wants, or beat around the bush just to say something. If you meet her and tell her straight what you think, she will admire you.

Lovepuke

Baby n I went to watch a play called Lovepuke at esplanade today. It was super good! Itz about Love, Sex and Arguments...so cool. Baby looked super good today i muz say. He wore this nice nice shirt tt I so love to touch coz the material juz feels good! But den again..he looks good everytime i see him too. Esp in his working clothes...wow! i juz LOVE him in his working clothes..he looks so pro n rich! Oh darn! Think im realli obsessed! *droolz*

Candy called me today asking me if i wanna go Bangkok n she found some pretty cheap n good deals! So of coz i was on about it! I so wanna go!! Actually wanted to go w Baby end of june, but prolly super difficult coz i havent earn money yet n my parents sure wun allow me to go w juz him n me alone. Lucky Candy came to the rescue when she said she wanna go and we most likely will be gg on the National day weekend for 4 days! *excited!* She asked Yimei along too so juz right got 4 of us! Yippee! Another thing to look forward to!

Thumper yesterday was overall fun! Love to be dancing n clubbing w my clubbing kaki Candy again. We drank until so high...crowd was pretty good, music was not bad. Onli drawback was the bunch of horny n high guys ard us! All Michael's frens. Me n Candy were like running ard to avoid those guys trying to dance n get touchy w us. Such a turn-off!

Baby was so so sweet to come n fetch us with his best bud joshua...but i think i acted all high n loud n fierce until joshua prolly thinks im weird n crazy.haha! Oopsie! =p yay! im gg clubbing w my beloved Swing Girls on this coming wed again! Super happie to see them after so long! Gonna get all high n dance like mad again...juz the way i like it!

Mr. and Mrs. Nic

Yesterday (Friday 10th June), Baby n I went to watch Mr. n Mrs Smith! Super good movie i muz say. Itz hilarious yet at the same time romantic in a witty, non-cliche way. Peeps, itz recommended so go catch it! I think Baby might be Gay though...he loves Brad Pitt..n he thinks Brad Pitt is sooo cute. haha. I was making a comment that i love Brad Pitt's teeth coz itz so pearly white n straight, attributing to his perfect smile. N Baby's response? He said "Oh...I love his eyes!" after I said "Oh...I love his teeth!". I nearly fainted! Baby sounded so excited like he is totally mesmerized with Brad Pitt...so r u gay or wat!?? hahaha!!

Before that we went to eat BK. Finally we ate cheaper food. Baby n I r always eating expensive n yummy food when we r out. N i finally get to eat my Star Wars starry-starry-shaped harshbrowns! *blissful* They also had their drinks in this Star Wars bottle too..which i wanted so badly to bring home n keep but my bag too small n itz dumb to carry it ard, so too bad i guess...next time! haha!

After the movie we went to meet my cousins. It was one of their birthday. Went to play a bit of pool n sing ktv @ k-box! itz been such a long time since i sang ktv! N i think my standard went down man. Cant rem how to sing a few songs properly, n as usual cant read the dumb chinese words. So long nvr sing liao, singing deteriorated. N i dun like k-box! Too much echo and too loud! n their song selection system not too user-friendly man. I still prefer n am more used to my fave PartyWorld one, hee! Due to time constriant, we onli sang for ard less than 2hrs coz it was closing alry. So sian..not much kick. Not as happening as when i go w my darling Swing Girls!

Baby fetched me home..n he said smthg tt I'll always rem. He said that he's obsessed w me n that he wants to be obsessed with me forever. I'll hold ur word for it...altho usually im skeptical abt wat guys can say to u...but i choose to believe him. Yanling is right....we are both obsessed n cant get enuff of each other. Prolly itz the so-called "honeymoon period"...though I am hoping it'll always be this way. Watever it is...I juz wanna enjoy these moments till it lasts.

N damn! My Lil' Bro came back frm sentosa with a very nice tan! He said the sun was bloody hot..n im so jealous! Grrr....

Oopsie! Im gg thumpering tonight! Yay! Hope it'll be fun n not so hot. hee! The Clubbing Princess reigns!

Keep the passion alive

The heart is the home of the true passion.
There, in the mysterious, invisible realm from which all feelings emerges,
the ocean of passion lies waiting to be stirred,
not by the right touch or by a skilful caress
but by the one thing that can cause passion to rise up - the love from another heart.

In the very instant your passion expresses itself,
whether through an embrace,
a sweet kiss, or a loving glance,
you enter into the timeless world of the heart.
It does not matter what has happened before.
It does not matter what will happen next.
All that matters is this moment.

~Passion is what happens when we let go of control.~

Do I still believe in fairy tales?

Yesterday we went Suntec to eat Chong Qing Hot Pot to celebrate Lil' Bro's bday. The "ma la" steamboat was super spicy n good! Juz the way I like it. Lil' Bro n me eat until so shiok..haha! Lil' Bro wore the Adidas shirt i bought for him. I guessed he muz have liked it pretty much, so im very happie! Today he went Sentosa with his frens. I oso wanna go lor! But I got driving in the morning. *sobz* cannot go tanning...

Ooh! My instructor said that my parallel parking is very good n consistent! Im delighted! So proud of myself. I guess thatz one area in driving that im good at. But prolly once i hit the roads n do the same parking outside..er...no more poles to help me liao...sure cannot do it. Mebbe i can juz wink wink and smile at some guy n ask him to park for me next time. Hahaha!

Was talking to Baby last night. Seems that we are starting to get pissed with each other over small issues. Mostly due to insecurities tt we face. Realli dun wanna quarrel w Baby. I hate quarrels...like the way i did w Issac (the Jerk!). Somehow, im not who i used to be. I cant trust anymore. Not onli cant trust Baby but guys in general. Thatz why I dun realli like Baby to go club without me. Im juz realli paranoid. Clubbing seems to present in itself multiple opportunities for guys to stray n flirt ard. N some gers r juz born to be sluts. They juz dunno how to behave, throwing themselves all over other guys n flirting promiscuously. I scared even if Baby is guai and behaves himself, other gers might not. Afterall, Baby is so cute...if I find him cute, other gers sure want a piece of him too. That pisses me off! I no longer wanna close one eye n share my bf like i did last time. Once bitten twice shy. Watz mine is mine...I aint letting anyone take watz mine away from me anymore...aint even willing to share. I've become possesive...so much that i dun even recognize myself anymore. Was it coz of the massive hurt done to me that accentuates my paranoia and insecurities now? Probably. Actually, definitely. Well done man...i've became some sort of possesive jealous insecured freak. I hate that!

Hope Baby understands. I noe he has been thru shit w his ex too. That dumb Hahaagal who aint even worth it I feel. She's one of those sluts im tokking about. Ended up kissing some ugly fug guy whom she thinks is cute (gawd..is she blind? Baby is so much better!) and poor Baby had to catch her n witness tt painful moment. Baby, rest assured I wun do that to you! I may be a bimbo n a real bitch sometimes but im definitely not a shameless slut.

Watever it is...juz give me some time. Give US some time k? Im sure we can work things out n things will turn out for the better. *optimistic Strawberry Princess*

Today is Sophia's bday! Happie 22nd Bday dearie Soph! Love u lotz lotz! Sobz...Soph is gg to Japan tmr with her mum n sisters. Wun be able to see her for some time or even celebrate her bday for her. Hopefully she'll remember to buy some of my beloved Kitty stuff back for me...n Li Ying too...oh yah n herself..she loves hello kitty too. That makes 3 Hello Kitty mad gers! haha!

~An ending note on my feelings: Trust is a willingness to be vulnerable. N i've built a formidable fortress around my heart. Will u be able to break it down n find ur way thru?~

blogging again

After so long, i decided to blog again..altho i noe blogs can be dangerous...rem jordan's blog? haha. But i have nothing to hide so i guess it'll be alrite.

today's my lil' bro's 17th birthday...he has grown up so much...realli love him to bitz...sometimes i think my parents love him more than they love me? i dunno... Anyway Daddy bought him this cool new samsung mp3 player than looks realli super chio! im so jealous i oso want! But oh well...guess itz coz his old mp3 player spolit recently...how timely! I better treasure my creative mp3 player... 21st bday pressie from my beloved lil' bro (he's rich huh?) and not fall in love w new ones..scared he might secretly feel upset w me..hahah!

Wonder where we gonna eat later to celebrate his bday. Im getting real fat..all thanx to my Baby. New bf, new life, new adventures. Hopefully not new heartbreaks...altho i noe in every r/s, getting hurt is inevitable and itz a "confirm-will-happen" thing. Juz hope i will be able to handle things much better than i did last time. Boy, thinking back..i was so so foolish. Well letz not go into that. Makes me pissed. *bleughz*