Unhappy n Bankrupt

Been staying at home yesterday and today coz im totally bankrupt. No $$ to go out at all. Trying to save my miserable allowance for my bangkok trip (with Baby, Candy n Yimei) exactly one mth from now. Havent told my parents tt Im gg yet. I think they might flip n get realli angry w me. But wat to do? Tickets have been issued n paid for. Hiakz...scheming little girl aint I? In that way itz harder for my parents to say no.

Yesterday has been a realli bad day. Cried a lot. So long nvr cry liao since my last brk-up with The Jerk. Quarrelled w my parents. Guess Im realli a bad n rebellious ger that my parents get so angry w me. Think they dun want me anymore. Quarrelled w Baby coz of some things in his past r/s that i cant bring myself to accept coz Im a jealous n insecured freak. Wat to do? He doesnt noe how to gain my trust.

Been thinking of getting a part-time job that is fun n no need to work so hard. Haha where got such jobs rite? But i think Im gonna work at some pub. Dun care abt my parents liao coz i realli need the money for my trip n my high maintenance lifestyle. Pub pays ard $7 per hour and i can do wat i do best : Look pretty, serve alcohol (smthg tt i noe pretty well), interact n *wink wink* at customers to ask them to buy drinks...haha! Will let u guys noe if i found one. Dun think it will be hard to find for me. Muz come support n kip me company k!