Whatever happens, happens.

Am on mc today again.
Sick with a bad persistent cough since last wed.
Had not recovered since.
Feeling really drowsy, no mood to work.

Been feeling rather down lately...due to sickness,
due to some stream of bad luck shit that Baby has been facing recently,
due to some ppl ard me who have kinda irritated me in some way.

Been especially disappointed with frens lately.
Some frens in particular.

I dun think im asking for much,
But they really disappointed me.

It seems like you dun really bother anymore.
It is like, why does it feel like im the only one making the effort most of the time?
So if I dun do anything, you aint gonna take the initiative too?
If you are not gg to make the effort, then neither am I.
If you dun need me, then neither do I.
AND dun always assume things about me without even asking me.

It makes me just wanna re-adjust my priorities
and change my focus to something or somebody else.
Things that I thot were impt, are suddenly not so impt anymore,
coz it dun seem impt to you anyway.
So why shud it be impt to me?

Conclusion is that I have decided not to go all out to make the effort anymore.
Whatever happens, happens.
Go with the flow.

I've learnt something meaningful at church yesterday.
As pastor said, God will present opportunities for successes in our lives
at the RIGHT TIME, at the RIGHT PLACE.

These are beyond our control.
No matter how strong, or how fast or how smart we are,
we cant control many things as all these are so-called "destiny" in our lives.
Destiny is what is in God's hands.

In a world of uncertainty, we have a God that is certain of our future.
God can put us at the right place at the right time.

So...i'll just leave it. Go with the flow.
God will present the opportunities, so whatever happens, happens.

Im just not gonna bother anymore.

P/S: Thanks BFF for being so sweet and calling me that day =)